Chidaliro: Ndinavomera kupita kwawo, osaganiza kuti zitha chonchi

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Chidaliro: Ndinavomera kupita kwawo, osaganiza kuti zitha chonchi

Dzina langa ndine Elizabeth ndipo ichi ndi chochitika chenicheni m'moyo chomwe chandichitikira. Sindinena dzina langa lomaliza komanso mayina enieni a anthu omwe akukhudzidwa pazifukwa zomwe ndikudziwa bwino.

Sindingafune kuti aliyense adziwe kuti ndiine, koma abale anga ndi abwenzi apamtima omwe amadziwa kale gawo ili la moyo wanga akhoza kudziwa kuti ndikulankhula.

Pa nthawiyo ndinali ndi zaka 19 zokha ndipo ndinali wokondwa kwambiri kudzawona Jos kuti akachezere wokondedwa wanga yemwe anali atangochoka ku Nigerian Army Training School (Depot) ndikukhala msirikali.

Ndinamudziwa Mike tili tonse ku Kaduna ndipo anali munthu woyamba kumudziwa. Anali chibwenzi changa pomwe tinali ku command day sekondale ku Kaduna. Anali patsogolo panga ndi zaka ziwiri zokha koma timakondana.

Atamaliza sukulu sanathe kuvomerezedwa kuti apitilize maphunziro ake mchaka choyamba, choncho adaganiza zolowa usilikari ndikusiya chaka chimodzi atamaliza maphunziro ku 2009. Ndinali chachiwiri pomwe adandiuza kuti ali m'ndandanda ndipo adzalowa usilikari.

Ndinali wokondwa kuti mwina tidakwanitsa kupanga china chake limodzi, popeza izi ndizomwe timakonda kukambirana kangapo kale. Pambuyo pa miyezi 6 ya kalasi ndipo pomaliza pake, panthawiyi ndinali kumaliza sukulu yasekondale.

Adandilonjeza kuti ndikamaliza sukulu ya sekondale awonetsetsa kuti andikwatira nthawi yomweyo komanso kuti ndipitiliza maphunziro anga ngati mkazi, zomwe zidandisangalatsa kwambiri. Nthawi inali yofulumira popeza ndinalembetsedwa kusukulu ndikudutsa waec yanga, analinso m'sukulu yophunzitsira ankhondo ku Nigeria ku Zaria.

Tidayimbirana nthawi zambiri usiku chifukwa samalola mafoni ndipo amatha kungozembera ndikuyimbira foni usiku. Pambuyo pa miyezi isanu ndi umodzi yamaphunziro adamaliza maphunziro ndikukhala msirikali wanthawi zonse ndipo inenso ndidamaliza ndipo tidali okondwa kuwona.

Sindingathe kuzichita chaka chomwecho nditamaliza sukulu chifukwa ndinali ndidakali mwana ndipo sindinaname, ndimati ndikawawuze makolo anga kuti abwere ku Jos ndipo ndikupitilizabe dikirani mwayi woyenera mpaka utadza.

Patatha chaka chimodzi ndi miyezi itatu, ndidachita ukwati kuti ndikakhale ndi mnzake wapamtima dzina lake Mary. Anasamukira ku Jos, choncho ndinayesa mwayi wanga. Ndinauza Mark pafoni kuti ndikubwera ndipo tonse tasangalala.

Anati Loweruka wafika, sindidzaiwala Epulo 14, 2012. Ngakhale ndidachoka ku kaduna Lachisanu pa 13 ndikufika kunyumba kwake. Sindinapite ku ukwati Loweruka pa 14 chifukwa sindinakonzekere kutero. Ndinangogwiritsa ntchito ngati chodzikhululukira kutuluka mnyumba ndikubwera kudzawona munthu wanga.

Ndinaimbira foni kunyumba kuti ndiwadziwitse kuti ndidzakhala sabata yamawa ndikubwera kunyumba sabata ino ikatha ndipo avomera ndikundisiya chifukwa ndi nzanga yemwe sindinamuonepo chiyambireni nthawi yayitali. Tinakhala kumapeto kwa sabata ndipo zonse zinali bwino. Ndinali ndikudziwa malowo ndipo tinali kupanga nthawi yotayika.

Tidasowa kwambiri ndipo sindinathe kuchoka pamsasa wake kwakanthawi. Tinali okondwa kwambiri mpaka kugogoda pakhomo madzulo a Lamlungu pa 15, patangopita tsiku lachitatu nditafika ku Jos, malo achitetezo ankhondo molondola.

Kunali mdima usiku wa Lamlungu pa Epulo 16, 2012. Ndinakumbukira kuti anapepesa kangapo asanagogode pakhomo kuti ndiyimbe foni. Sindinachite manyazi kwambiri chifukwa ndimamukhulupirira kwambiri. Ndinangomva kuti inali ntchito yankhondo, mwina a "Oga" amene amamuyitana kuti amutumizire uthenga kapena chimzake.

Sindinavutike kumufunsa nthawi zonse akabwerera. Ndinangokumbukira kuti wazimitsa foni yake ndikuti ngati sakufuna akufuna apite kuntchito yausiku ndipo popeza sakufuna amayenera kuzima foni yake ndipo ine adagwa mchikondi ndi izi.

Patatha mphindi zochepa kudamveka kugogoda poti kudali mdima ndipo tidadya ndidali nawo omwe adalipira kale tikucheza ndikukankhana pabalaza tisanagogode.

Anazengereza kuyankha pamene munthuyo anakhomerera kwambiri nthawi yachiwiriyo. Kenako adafunsa kuti ndi ndani ndipo adayankha "Mnzanga anabwera kudzatsegula khomo ili, bwanji sunayankhe koyamba"?

Adadzuka ndikutsegula chitseko. kumusi ndipo apa panali dona wina. Amawoneka wodabwitsidwa kuti adandipeza kumeneko. Ndidamupatsa moni ndipo adayankha koma mosakhala waubwenzi ndipo chotsatira ndidamumva akunena "Mike ndiyenera kulankhula nawe" ndipo analowa m'chipinda chamkati ndikuyamba kulankhula.

Kenako ndinadziwa kuti panali zovuta ndipo ndinayesetsa kudzitsimikizira kuti sizomwe ndimaganiza. Amayesetsa kumukhazika mtima pansi ndipo amamukweza mawu kuti ndimve zonse zomwe akunena. Ndidamumva akumufunsa ngati ndichifukwa chake wazimitsa foni yake chifukwa samamufuna kuti abwere kudzandipeza kunyumba?

Sanathe kunena chilichonse. Anamufunsa kuti ndine ndani ndipo samathabe kunena chilichonse. Anapitilizabe kumupempha kenako adati azituluka ndikundiuza kuti ndichokepo nthawi yomweyo apo ayi anyamuka ndipo sadzamuonanso.

Ndipamene ndidadabwitsa moyo wanga. Anali atamulemba kale ntchito. Sindinamuyang'ane kwambiri kuti ndidziwe kuti wavala mphete kuzala zake. Ndimaganiza kuti amangokhala mlendo kapena woyandikana naye kapena mnzake yemwe amayenera kundiuza kuti ndikubwera kotero adabwera kudzandipatsa moni.

Chilichonse chomwe amamuuza mchipinda, samatha kunena chilichonse kuti anditeteze kapena kudzitchinjiriza. Adanditchulanso hule wakumudzi yemwe amabwera ndikumugwira ndipo ngati samalimba mtima kutuluka ndikundithamangitsa usiku womwewo, azikapanga yekha.

Pamenepo, ndinamva chisoni kwambiri ndipo sindinathe kudziletsa ndipo ndinayamba kulira. Ndikudziwa kuti atsikana omwe ali mndende ndi amanyazi komanso openga ndipo sindinakhale wokonzeka kumenyana naye chifukwa sindinali wankhondo wamkulu kukula. Ndinali mtsikana wachichepere wosalakwa ameneyu akumangondipezera mwayi.

Anatenga nkhondoyi kuchokera kuchipinda china kupita komwe ndinali ndipo mayiyo anabwera kwa ine ndikuyamba kunditchula mayina. Anati ndipite ndikamusiye mwamuna wake yekha kuti akwatire. Anati ndinali wakuba wamwamuna komanso hule komanso wotsika mtengo.

Ndimangoyang'ana Mike ndipo ndimakhumba atatsegula pakamwa pake kuti anditeteze kamodzi koma sanatero. Anandikankha mwamphamvu ndipo sindinathe kuzitenganso. Atandigwira tsitsi akunditchula mayina, ndidamukankha ndipo adandimenya. Zomwe ndimakumbukira ndikuti tidabwezedwanso.

Zachidziwikire anali wamphamvu koma ndidangokana kukamutenga. Adalowa ndikutilekanitsa. Kenako adavula mphete yake ndikumuuza komweko ndikapanda kutuluka mnyumbayo sadzakwatiranso. Ndipo abambo ake, omwe anali wamkulu, anali oti amve zomwe zachitika.

Ndinawona chikondi cha moyo wanga chikuzizira ndipo sindinathe kunena chilichonse. Pambuyo pake ndinazindikira kuti anali atamaliza maphunziro ake ndipo anali kugwira ntchito mchipatala cha zamankhwala monga wasayansi wasayansi ndipo ndidazindikira kuti ndichifukwa chake Mike adamusankha kuposa ine, koma zinali anali zaka zingapo pambuyo pake.

Anandiyandikira pang'onopang'ono ndikuyesera kundiwonetsa zifukwa zomwe ndinayenera kuchoka. Apa ndipamene mtima wanga unaphwanyidwa mzidutswa zingapo. Sindingathe kupirira. Ndinkalira nthawi zonse.

Pamene amayesetsa kundikhazika mtima pansi, ndimaganizira kwambiri za nkhanza zake komanso umbuli wake. Ndinangobwera kumene ndikhale ndikumakhala ndi iye yekha ndipo amandiuza kuti ndipite kuti? Sindinadziwe komwe ndimapita koma ndinanyamula chikwama changa ndikusintha china. Kumuwona kunandikwiyitsa kwambiri.

Kuipiraipira inali nthawi ya 21 koloko usiku pomwe adandifunsa kuti ndichoke ndipo mvula idayamba kutuluka pena paliponse. Mfiti Amanda anali atakhala pamenepo, akundidikirira kuti ndilongedze katundu wanga. Ndinanyamula zikwama zanga ndipo atafuna kundiona ndinamuuza kuti asandiyese.

Ndinamuuza kuti ngati sakufuna kuwona chiwanda mwa ine, ayenera kuyesera kuti ndipite. Adayesa kundipasa ndalama koma mkwiyo wanga ndi kunyada nthawi imeneyo sizinapangitse kuti ndisiye kusonkhanitsa, ndidangochoka. Nyumbayi inali ndi magawo awiri kwa asirikali wamba omwe siapolisi. Gawo 1 ndi gawo 2.

Munali mgawo lachiwiri ndipo ndimafunikira njinga kuti ndipite nawo gawo 1 ndisanakwere taxi kuchokera pa chipata chachikulu cha gawo 1 kupita kutauni komwe ndimayendedwe ena a 45 mins kuti ndikhoze Pezani hotelo ku Lodge. Ndinalibe ngakhale ndalama zokwanira koma ndimangofuna kuti ndipeze malo oti ndikapumitse mutu wanga ndikupumula usiku.

Ndili ndi zokwanira usiku umodzi kotero ndimaganiza kuti misozi ikutsika m'maso mwanga. Ndimayenda mumsewu waukulu unali wopota komanso wosadziwika kwa ine kungakhale kovuta kupeza njinga popeza amatseka nthawi ya 21 koloko ndipo inali itangotsala mphindi zochepa kuchokera 21 koloko masana.

Ndimalira koma simunazindikire chifukwa chamvula. Ndidakhala panjira kuyambira gawo 2 mpaka gawo 1 kwa mphindi pafupifupi 30 mvula ili kuti ndipeze wina yemwe apitirire gawo 1 koma sindinawone.

Mike ankangondiyimbira ndipo sindinali kutola. Sindinkafuna kumva chilichonse chomwe akananena chifukwa cha ukali wanga mpaka pano. Mphindi zochepa pambuyo pake, galimoto inaima patsogolo panga ndipo inayamba. Sindinadziwe kuti anali ine amene anali kunena chifukwa malingaliro anga anali atachoka mthupi langa.

Ndimaganiza momwe ndifikire kunyumba chifukwa zonse zomwe ndinali nazo zinali # 1245 (naira sauzande mazana awiri mphambu makumi anayi ndi asanu okha). Maganizo amomwe ndimagona, ndikafika bwanji, andipiritsa ndalama zingati, ndimalipira bwanji?

Ndingabwerere bwanji kwa makolo anga? Ndinali ndi zambiri m'maganizo mwanga. Munthu wabwino uja anandiimbiranso kuti andimvetse ndipo anandifunsa kuti ndikupita kuti. Ndinamuuza kuti ndikufuna kupita kulikonse komwe ndingakwere taxi kuchokera m'tauni.

Anati sakupita pakhomo lalikulu koma atha kundithandiza chifukwa kukugwa mvula. Anandipempha kuti ndibwere ndipo ndinatero mosazengereza ndikuthokoza. Tili m'njira, adazindikira kuti ndili phee ndipo adandifunsa ngati ndikubwera kudzawona munthu?

Sindingathe kumuyankha chifukwa ndimayamba kulira ndikachita ndipo sindinkafuna zimenezo. Koma ndikapanda kumuyankha, iwonso angandichitire mwano, chifukwa chake ndimayesa kudzikoka, ndikugwedezera mutu kuvomereza.

Kenako adandifunsa kuti dzina langa ndi ndani ndipo ndidamuwuza. Kenako adafunsanso chifukwa chomwe ndimapitilira mtawoni chonchi komanso ngati ndingapeze njira yanga chifukwa kunali kutada. ndinayesa kumuyankha misozi itayambanso kugwetsa. Ndipo nthawi ino zinali ngati wina amandimenya ndikupangitsa zinthu kuipiraipira.

Anayima ndikundilola kulira kwambiri asananene chilichonse. Ndidamuuza zonse zomwe zachitika kuyambira pomwe ndidafika kwa bambo yemwe ndimaganiza kuti ndi chibwenzi changa, pomwe adandithamangitsa chifukwa chamkazi wina. Anangonena chinthu chimodzi.

"Ndikudziwa kuti simukundidziwa, ndipo ndikumva kuti kwachedwa ndipo ndizowopsa kwa inu omwe ndinu mlendo kuti mupeze njira yopita kutauni mochedwa kwambiri, ndimakhala ndekha, ndikhoza kukulolani kuti mukhale kunyumba kwanga ku kupatula usiku, mupeza njira yopita kwanu mawa ”. Ndipo adandifunsa zomwe ndimaganiza?

Sindinganene chilichonse chifukwa ndikudziwa kuti amuna samachita chilichonse kwaulere. Ndikutanthauza, ngati wina amene ndimamukhulupirira wandikhumudwitsa, ndiye bwanji ndikhulupirire munthu amene ndangokumana naye? Malingaliro ankadutsa m'mutu mwanga pamene ndimayeza zosankha zanga.

Sizinali ngati ndinali ndi zosankha zambiri. Ndipo ndimaganiza kuti zitha kukhala zowopsa, koma ndibwino kuposa kugona panja. "Ndinavomera kupita kumalo ake, sindimadziwa kuti zisintha moyo wanga". Tsogolo liri ndi njira yobweretsera anthu pamodzi, ndikuganiza.

Kuti ndifupikitse nkhaniyi, Emmanuel anali munthu yemwe adandipulumutsa usiku uja, ndi munthu wofatsa kwambiri. Ayenera kuti adagona ndi abwenzi ake usiku womwewo kuti ndikhale womasuka ndikugona.

Adandipatsa ndalama mawa lake ndikundisiya ku park ndikubwerera ku kaduna. Tinasinthana manambala ndipo amapitilizabe kundiimbira ndipo tinakhala oposa abwenzi. Ndidamuyendera kamodzi kapena kawiri mpaka pomwe adandifunsira ndipo tidakwatirana mu 2013.

Icho chinali chinthu chabwino kwambiri chomwe sichinachitikepo m'moyo wanga. Ndidalipidwa koposa chifukwa cha mtima woswekawu usiku womwe ndidakumana naye. Tili ndi mwayi kukhala ndi ana atatu pakadali pano, anyamata awiri ndi mtsikana m'modzi. Ndipo timakhala moyo wabwino komanso wosangalala.

Mike adakwatirana ndi mayiyu ndipo asanamwalire mu 2018 pomwe adaukiridwa ndi Boko Haram, adali ndi mwana wamkazi. Ngakhale mamuna wanga ndiwamkulu, pomaliza ndidamuwonetsa mamuna wanga nditamuzunza mamuna wanga kwambiri kuti ndidziwe kuti ndi ndani.

Mwamuna wanga adamuyitana ndipo ndidamukhululukira ndipo tidangowonana kamodzi kapena kawiri mpaka pomwe ndidamva kuti adaphedwa pa ntchito ku North East. Mzimu wake ndi miyoyo yonse ya anthu okhulupilira achoke ndi chifundo cha Mulungu apumule mu mtendere weniweni #Ameni.

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